The truth is...

• Today was my first day of my new job
• I never understood how people could get "stuck" in life.
• And now I can't figure out how to get unstuck.
• I love having guests.
• Every time a guest leaves it makes me feel a million times more lonely than before they came.
• I had separation anxiety about leaving my dog alone today.
• She is probably my best friend.
• I am so scared of failing, sometimes I don't try.
• I thought I would get skinnier when I joined a gym in December, but every single night when I try to book a spinning class online, they're full.
• Is that karma?
• I hate being fat, but I can't stop emo eating.
• When I was a kid I used to make butter burritos.  Recipe : Spread butter on a tortilla, microwave until butter melts.  Add more cold butter.  Wrap.  This will give you the perfect mix of cold and melty butter.
• If you're not judging me right now, I'm judging YOU.    
• I haven't had a butter burrito in a while.
• I think this this picture just might epitomize my perfect life and I have looked at it a million times.

• I wonder if America is better in my head than it is in real life.  I haven't lived there for a year and a half now.
• I really want to be an urban beekeeper and have chickens.
• And ride my bike every where.
• Apparently Nick's mum is allergic to bees and Nick has never been stung so he isn't so sure about my bee keeping idea.
• I wonder if I will miss England when we leave.
• I have made a lot of deals with God lately and I'm not sure I ever hold up my end of the bargain.
• I still haven't sent the Christmas presents I bought.
• I do not remember the last time I slept through the night.  
• I should probably get some pills for that, but I hate doctors.  
• ...and fashion blogs.  There I said it.  But I like the girls who write them because I think they're cute.  but I hate how much fashion bloggers shop.  It seems really wasteful.  Sorry.